i wrote a soundtrack
45 minutes of gut wrenching music
straight from my soul
several weeks ago i released the trailer
all i have is music....
20 people liked my instagram video, one commented
100+ people saw my story
100 people viewed the youtube link
32% watched until the end
two commented
("rad")
5 people liked it
one dislike :/
(I have reason to believe it was my dad--too dark for the family reputation i guess)
must be my religious instability
im sorry for asking questions
im sorry its too dark for everyone, i just wanted to make music
i've felt a need to make this soundtrack since i was a kid
i ALWAYS knew i could write a soundtrack
but i was wrong about being able to make one that people would admire
im sorry i put myself out there
i know how this goes
the artist who plays at every cafe he can
and doesnt get noticed
and gives up
to go to school to be a businessman
is this what dreams are made of?
because if it is true i dont want to sleep anymore
i want to wake up
this is a nightmare
i cant be who i want to be
i dont think i'll ever find myself like i did before
i think i'm just supposed to shut up
i think they expect me to keep it up
i think they want me to stay
i might be done
it might be past my bed time
i cant even afford to quit anyways
it wouldnt work
itd only set me back further
so as i sit writing this
im reminded of how hard i try
for
nothing
in return
how much i cared
i cant ask other people to care about me
.....its just that....
people i care about
make me feel small sometimes
and nobody really cares about josh hill :/
