All's i'm sayin

All's i'm sayin is I wish I could speak to someone.

Hear what they're feeling, and reciprocate.

All's i'm sayin is it's awful cold out, and awful warm by a fire.

All's i'm sayin is it's even dead cold by this fire when I think of burying my head into your embrace.

My mind is stuck in a dimly lit, fire smelling, stew brewing, folk humming, eye tiring, sock wearing, love making, chest sinking, wooden cabin with my dearest sweetheart--snowed in neck-deep on a perpetual winter night.

All's i'm sayin is I wish that was all I had.

All's i'm sayin is that I now understand what it means to be cozy and warm, and I know what it means to wake up in a meat locker.

All's i'm sayin is I know what I need to be cozy and warm . .... ...



Shitting at the levy

Shittin’ in a gas station.

I had to hustle to get there.

Run-limping through a dark subarctic parking lot being careful enough not to “number two” myself on the way.

My life is weird.

Now I’m starin’ at my jeans hugging my ankles with moccasins on under the dull white lights of my throne.

Listening to a song I haven’t heard for three years.

I know I haven’t heard this song for three years because I remember exactly where I was when I stumbled upon it during this epic stool purge.

I was sitting square in the leather couch at 4625 W with the computer on my lap.

Second semester of Senior Year January 2016.... thinking of a blog title for creative writing.


It’s 33 degrees out and the van was cozy.... but I’m dropping a seismic deuce wishing I was there.

And it is absolutely insane....

I am taking a shit here in this gas station because I met a girl named Addie way back when.

We talked about our blogs in guitar class and I fell in love for the first time.

This pensive discharge has my mind thinking about how destiny brought me here in the first place.

Dominoe..... Dominoe.... Dominoe....

I chased a girl named Adeline to a school I had no business going to. I fell into life going back and forth between stories that brought me  all the way back here.... at a 7/11.... legs now numb from sitting here so long.... but it just has me thinking.

How I named a blog after a song, fell in love for the first time over exchanging writings, and finding the rest to be history.

The present moment seems surreal. 

Rediscovering a song that was a piece of a complicated puzzle that brought me here... suffering in a gas station.

That is all.

Yours truly,


Fool’s Gold

So long...

Slowing down now.

The music will keep me at tempo.

The air stings with cold.

The wood walls dark for all but a candle or two.

The music will die off.

My heartbeat will grow heavy.

The fireplace kept up still...


So as to gently cradle me asleep, into the promise of missing all tomorrows.