3 days to final launch

The fuel is waiting there
Its been waiting a long while
The button is red and waiting too
waiting
waiting
waiting

wanting...
........
Its time.
...........
It just is...

Josh is dead

What's left is the shell of a young man
Hollow as to hear the wind blow between it's ears
Stone enough to see it's eyes unmoving
Staring it's way out of conversation
Rigid and flexed
Josh is dead

What's left is the nose of a young scout
Fresh as to smell the trees and how they burned                          i
Burned enough to watch the coals die in the night                      f
Staring it's way into the coals        
Blackened and Burned                                                                 y
Josh is dead                                                                                  o
                                                                                                     u              p
What's left are the strings of a young bard                                                  l
Snapped as to brave the anger of it's song                                   w             e            j
Broken enough to lie still unplayed                                             o              a            u
Staring it's songs into the air                                                        u              s            s
Cut and short                                                                                l               e            t
Josh is dead                                                                                  d
Josh is dead
Josh is dead                                                                                         let go
Josh is dead
Josh is dead
Josh is dead
Josh is dead
Josh is dead

My little versailles

iM SORrY i LeFT
BuT iT WAs FOR tHE bEST
ThouGh It NEVer Felt RigHt



It's No surprise

... that when the sun rises again I wont be here
... that when I ran away from my problems in Logan I found my old ones back at home
... that I would end up like this
... that the absolute crippling feeling in my stomach gets worse every day
... that I feel like a less interesting Nick Drake
... that I feel like directionlessness has beset me once again
... that I still want to leave this place in my head
... that I'll try