notes

i thought tonight would be a lot different

but it seems this was always part of the routine
im all alone now

i thought these weeks would be allot different

i just can't live like this anymore

but this is my note and i didn't know how to say it

im not happy

im not brave

im not ever speaking again

im not ready to wake up again to another morning

im not writing this for anybody

im done crying 

im done trying

im done lying

im done dying

im done

nobody will even see this anyways

im just done

this blog seemed to be the only place i was safe 

i cant bear to make them suffer for me

but i cant fix these problems anyways
i have nobody to talk to
even casual conversation
even my closest friends 

ive thought life through and through

no loop holes and no mistakes left undone

its been this way for years now

its only gotten worse

it only gets worse

it only feels worse

it only made everything worse

its just the worst

and im the worst