Fell asleep tonight and woke to a morning years from now

Figured it wasnt worth it anymore

I stared at the shadows from the treetop clouds

after the sun left me

and I sat in a silence 

my eyes squinted against the wind

and they stared into the shadows

and my lips could not utter

but there was much to be said

and I contemplated life

and I contemplated death

and I drew from a spring and drunk a water 

and there became a lightning through my throat to my stomach

and all through my body till it consumed me

and a sleep consumed me

and there was no pain here

and there was no happiness here

and there was nothing here

and so I spat the water back into its world

I arose to a morning I had not yet seen

A mountain sunrise that ripped my mind

my eyes became awake

and the hazed treetop cloud broke into a mist of grey rain

and it stared back at me as I marvelled in its gesture

I was in love

and the air I breathed was something like pine

I was at home

and the air was chilling on my skin

and my blanket like a fire kept me warm

oh how i existed on that morning after I drunk the water and awoke

So much deeper than was the stake

of the feelings in the water world

where nothing is and nothing was to be

and my eyes were awakened

not as to squint against a midnight october wind 

but as to brave the chilling air of my mountain morning when sleep lay heavy on my lids

You were there.

and you were there unaware of your beauty as you slept 

and you were more so lovely than the grey rain

and my eyes were awakened by my dreams of death

to find a life worth living in an october rain

or an october snow?